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i certainly feel like i am some kind of retarded.

negativewordsabound

not really sure what i’m doing with this manmystery. don’t know why i vest any further energies in it. guess i want closure, or a slap in the face…which it sort of feels like i regularly get. i suppose i already got closure too, in the form of a ‘i don’t really care about vesting myself in this relationship’ message. perhaps i am ridiculous.

truthfully, i don’t know what’s going on with me. i’m dragging in the teariest, sluggiest way. all there has been this week is work and sleep, and it’s such a wretched feeling to wrestle every day. Is it weird that I just want SOMEONE there to enjoy? perhaps i am not doing this right.

seasounds

crazy bulgy headache. TEHAS is minutes away; i only hope that my energy and excitement is adequate. this should be a reunion of giggly, warm and delightful proportions.

my mind keeps playing with the idea of attitude. i’m trying to work myself into a place where complaints don’t flow so readily, and my sights are set on what makes me feel warm inside. it’s tough sometimes. it’s confusing sometimes. how does a girl know when it’s time to leave one path and jump on another? how does a girl know if she has the drive and will and determination to make something work? maybe it needs to be more about maximizing the current circumstances, rather than complete upheaval and re-invention. I am me on any of these paths….what am i leaving as i walk them that will make for awesome memories when i look back?

sweetsavasana

i have high hopes that i'll make my 30 times in 30 days. Only challenges being: texas and halloween.


career. free bird. goals in fog. man frustrations. yoga. yoga. yoga. early to bed. energy. efficiency. where do i want to be?

stuff just keeps happening. there really isn't anything to worry about.

infinite random thoughts

consider getting masters?